Love, Jim.
On an Anzac Day where we’re all forced to be apart, I’ve stumbled across a portal of connection and remembrance. In between working from home, schooling from home and cleaning my home; I’ve been journeying through centuries and hemispheres.
Self isolation has changed the way we see things, and in my case March’s card- collapse of the world found me eyeing off the innocuous-looking green ring binder on my bookshelf. As the meme goes, ‘Our grandparents had to go to war, you just have to sit on the couch.’
I’d been sitting on the couch. I wondered what it felt like to go to war.
In 1918 my Great Grandfather was serving in the dog-days of WW1. He was 21, he was passionately in love and - oh boy - he could write. For twelve months James (‘Jim’) sent letters of love, pain and all that fell in between, to his sweetheart Katherine (‘Kay’).
My Grama, Jim’s daughter, painstakingly transcribed the originals and gifted them to me on my 24th birthday. I was young, living in London, read them (...I think? Oh, forgive me!) And then they languished in various houses for 15 years.
As soon as I opened that green folder last month, I knew I had to share the letters. I floated the idea of serialising them on Instagram with Grama. She may be 93, but she’s no stranger to the internet. She agreed immediately.
There’s 112 years between Jim’s pencil scratches from France and my laptop in Melbourne, but in some bizarre way, it works.
We all have so much time at the moment. So I’m taking this project slowly. Each night I approach the next letter. I try not to read ahead (although, some would say, my very existence is the ultimate plot spoiler ...)
I type out his words, tuck them in a digital envelope and send them out into the ether. That the letters still exist is one wonder; that I can share them with strangers across the world, is another.
Like us, Jim and Kay were living through a collective trauma. They were (and we are) simultaneously witnesses and players. It feels foreign to live through a time that will be imparted to others, endlessly, through books, films and media that doesn’t yet exist. We’re breathing history that doesn’t have a final chapter. Was Jim as burdened by pre-emptive self-awareness as we are now? I doubt it. Because his letters don’t speak to historical events and world-changing decisions. They’re simply verbal steps, just one foot in front of the other, with little idea of what lies ahead.
Surprisingly though, it’s not descriptions of front-line warfare that makes the letters so captivating. It’s the humour, the small observations, and the ardent passion of a young man for his sweetheart. I find comfort in this and the lesson it teaches to us now, living through our own sci-fi version of a war. In the midst of the worst, little things are still important. A smokey room in rural France. The phosphorescence breaking on the bow of a ship. A night’s rest under four blankets on a German-built bunk. And throughout it all, love. Sometimes romantic. Sometimes, shockingly (these are my great grandparents we’re talking about), really quite steamy.
The activity of transcribing Great Grampa’s correspondence has been restorative, almost meditative. And it’s brought my extended family back into my house. Each time I sit at my desk, a small crowd enters the room. Each has a part to play in ensuring these words have survived long enough to be shared in this way. It’s a chance to hold hands with my mother, self-isolated two hours from me. To reach out to grandmother, self-isolated in her retirement home. To send a smile to my great grandparents - isolated in memory and photo albums and shadows. Perhaps most importantly, it’s a process that is reminding me that creativity and love can still thrive through unimaginable hardship.
I’ll leave the last words to Jim, because he was so good with them. This Anzac Day, he’s reminded me to take heart, be brave, and know how much we’ll appreciate things when this is all over:
~ This article was first published in The Sydney Morning Herald ~